Ironic

It was the awkward way that she talked about her one night stand. It was the noticeable averting of her eyes. It was how she didn’t elaborate about her weekend stories. And it was so much more.

We aren’t friends anymore and both of us know it, but neither of us publicly announce it. We are both just going to on pretending that it isn’t true. I’d like to believe that she misses me, but I don’t have enough confidence to do it.

Lonely Girl went away for a weekend trip to the lake with some mutual friends, friends that she wouldn’t have known if she didn’t know me, and met someone there. She went out to the clubs last night and apparently the someone she met is here in [insert college town name here] and met her at the clubs. Well, they hooked up last night and she seemed less enthusiastic about it than a normal red-blooded woman who just got some good cock would. And we used to be best friends so, I know what her uncomfortable-not-wanting-to-talk-about-it sounds/looks like. She was like that when she got together with her last one time fuck buddy. They had been pussy footing around the fact that they both wanted to do each other. So when they actually did hook up and she had the attitude of ‘Yeah, we did it’, I knew it wasn’t because the sex was bad, or maybe it was, like I said she didn’t elaborate.

Some background would probably help here; 6 months ago Lonely Girl accused me of using people for sex. I am going to try to make this sound unbiased or defensive or like she was totally in the wrong; but I have only had 2 partners and with both of them I waited to have sex for at least 4 months and we were in a monogamous, official relationship. I have never had a one night stand, and I am in love with the second of my two partners. I know that I said I was going to be as unbiased as possible and I am trying, but what I write next might not come across as that way. Lonely Girl has had at least 8 and maybe 10 partners in the last year and a half and has not been in a relationship with any of them. She has in fact never been in a relationship. And three days after accusing me of using people for sex she fucked the second previously mentioned one night fuck buddy.

I wonder how it feels to have empty, meaningless, multiple one night stands. I feel sorry for her because she is over 21 and doesn’t know anything about men. I once asked a very good friend of mine, who I tried to set her up with, what it was about her that he found unattractive. Because she is cute, and a very fun girl. And I always had a blast with her, but she just repulses men when it comes to actually dating them. They of course want to fuck her brains out because, they are men and she offers them one time sex with no strings attached. He said that it was ineffable, something that couldn’t be described. It was the awkward moments where there would be that silence, the ones that you don’t know how to fill properly. The ones where most people go ‘So, how ’bout those Yankees?’ type comments. Not that I am a Yankee fan. He said that it was they way that she handled those silences, it was they way that she approached conversations, it was the way that she just plain interacted with him. He said that it was everything. And since I have tried to set her up with at least 10 different guys and albeit a good 3 of those guys did turn out to be complete fuckwits and douchebags that leaves 7 guys that were genuine, nice, date worthy people. To digress: the same night that she hooked up with the second stated guy, Guy A, there was another man that I tried yet again to set her up with and she said that with Guy A she could get screwed. So instead of choosing to go talk to and get to know a date worthy guy, she decided to have sex instead. Again 3 days after telling me that I used people for sex. Back on the right train of thought, what did those 7 guys have in common? Guess. That is correct: her. It isn’t them, it’s her. There is something about her that men aren’t attracted to. And as long and as many times as I have discussed it with my good friend, I still am totally mystified about what it is that men don’t find attractive about her personality.

Deep down, whether she is willing to admit it or doesn’t even know it herself, a part of her knows that she is a big, fat hypocrite for accusing me of what she does herself. And if I felt pity, I would give it to her.

Whisper

Five Fact Friday

1. There is nothing wrong with enjoying erotica, I happen to love it. Especially reading it. So romance novels are fun as long as there is an actual plot and the writer doesn’t ‘blow’ at the non-sexy stuff.
2. I want to dye my hair, but I love the color too much and have an underlying fear that even with the grow out it would never return to its original color and sheen.
3. I have an amazing body or so I am told, but I still think there are areas that need improvement.
4. I am jealous of my ridiculously year long tan boyfriend; he makes me feel pale all the time!
5. Summer is here and the bikini that I bought last season somehow got all stretched out. Not by me though. Hmmm.

XOXO

Whisper

From 0 to 60

Headlights on an open, empty, back country road. An erotically charged woman. And no one expecting them.

She sits in low luminous glow from the dashboard, she looks out the corner of her eye across the center panel and a slow, one sided smile creeps near the corner of her mouth. She reaches over and lays her hand on your inner thigh, gently stroking. You look over at her, and her smile creeps up even higher. She unbuckles and slips down off of the seat, she has to maneuver around the stick shift of your car and slightly fumbles with your belt buckle and zipper. At last she manages to free your swollen cock from its cloth barrier. Licking up your shaft, she rubs your head with her thumb and forefinger. And in one deep swallow takes all of you into her mouth. Her tongue runs over the skin on the underside of your shaft, right below the head of your stiff cock. Tracing her tongue around your girth she begins to suck, making her cheeks hollow with the pressure. Her fingers find their way to your balls and she gently massages them all the while moving up and down the length of your shaft.

Your adrenaline kicks in and your heart beat quickens, your foot involuntarily increases pressure on the accelerator. She keeps applying pressure to the head of your cock until you release so vigorously in her mouth that a drop makes it’s way past her lips and down her delicate chin and she swallows the rest of your pristine, white cum.

You might say that she knows how to handle a stick shift.

XOXO

The Phoenix